When it comes to retraining your body to move and function as it should you need to remember to keep the activities you use for therapy relevant. Just as my original team stated,” you need to get back to the things you used to do to see the best recovery results”. Instead of focusing on the same activities chimpanzees in labs have to do start using your hobbies to your advantage. Playing with blocks and tongs is not going to help very much, I’m sorry. It is for this reason that I have been making an attempt at Painting with the hand/side that was originally paralyzed.
It has been an eye-opening experience to say the least. It turns out that if i want to paint anything in a minimalistic style I should just use my affected side. I haven’t been doing much for writing, but there has been a decent amount of retraining lately. I have always been artistic so this is probably one of the best ways for me to fine tune my fine motor skills in that hand over the next several years.
I present to you: Welcome to The Darkness
No matter your background or you come from we all have a part or parts of our journey we are not proud of. Instead of dwelling on the past and wishing you had done something differently accept that the past is the past and try to make sure you do not end up there again. I promise that no matter how much you think about it you won’t change anything so chin up and keep moving forward. Try to remember that those rough patches likely helped shape you into the stronger person you are today. If you don’t like who you are today start taking steps towards being the person you’ve always dreamed of being.
Focusing on your past is just as bad as focusing on the future without being able to see the present moment for its entirety. I guess between having a stroke and losing my best friend within the same year taught me that nothing is guaranteed. Personally certain things in the past just make me sad and that’s enough of a reason to focus on the present with a relatively positive outlook. Life happens and then it either breaks us or changes us. I’m a firm believer in everything happening for a reason, if something happens more than once you obviously didn’t learn the lesson. That being said everyone you meet comes into your life for a reason, not everyone is going to be a blessing. Some people only come into your lives to treat you a lesson.
If you continue to dwell on the past instead of reflecting, assessing and moving on you are not giving yourself a chance. Instead of chaining yourself to the past and any mistakes or situations let yourself move forward. Give yourself a chance to change and move forward maybe even building something better. You may not think you deserve it, but you are also the only one setting limits on yourself from making the future better for yourself.
If you do not like something change it, and if you cannot change it modify your views of it. Yes this can be difficult, but being able to see things from another perspective is a great skill to have in today’s day and age. For example: back when I pretended to be a social being I really hated Mondays, but now that I’ve given into my antisocial and introverted ways I love monday’s because everyone is grumpy and nobody wants to talk. Right there is proof that changing your perspective even just slightly can make a bog difference in how you see the world around us.
Instead of always seeing the negative in a situation try to find one or two positive things or angles in each. I promise that only after a short while you will begin to see the world and the people around you in a brighter light than you did before. Like If you live somewhere where it’s generally only warm about five months of the year, don’t complain about it because it will be cold and snowy like a disturbing winter wonderland in no time. If you enjoy that heat don’t complain on the rainy days because they save you from having to water and everything gets a little more luscious.
Instead of seeing someone as dumb or unintelligent because they are not good at the same things as you, start seeing them for what they are good at. None of us are good at the same things so stop focussing on what they are bad at and try to see what they excel in. Everyone is good at least one thing start appreciating them for it.
While it is important to set goals and achieve them in a timely matter it is super important to not be working on said goals and have fun. This weekend o actually took a thirty-six hour period of chilling where I wasn’t allowed to work on the next book or the blog and it was amazing. This can be difficult when you’re a goal driven workaholic like me, but yet so worth it. The best part was being able to catch up with a friend I haven’t seen very much of over the last few years.
When I say don’t forget to have fun I really mean take time away from your goals and do things that make you feel good. This could be anything from a hobby to quality time with friends or family. Usually I default to a hobby due to being extra introverted in my downtime. I like being able to recharge on my own, usually just so that I can get back to those goals. I can say that this time around kicking back and catching up with an old friend was just what I needed. I’m very fortunate to have a handful of friends here that no matter how long we go without seeing each other nothing really changes.
I forget to have fun or take time for myself all the time. I guess I’m sort of masochistic by intentionally stressing myself out to get to that strung out super productive state. I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I can be pretty tightly wound at times haha. I’m trying to get into a routine of taking a day or two a week for myself and this is proving to be quite difficult. I will also admit that I’m thoroughly enjoying having a day or two each week to do whatever I desire. The last two weeks I got a little more artistic on my days off combining art with hand therapy and it was awesome.
Growing up in a city it is easy to get lost in the hustle and bustle of things. It is also very easy to feel insignificant or unheard when you get stuck in a rut and nothing stops except you. You may not know this, but everything you do does make a difference to at least somebody whether that’s a friend, lover, or boss. When your lost look for your passion or values that should lead you to a viable option to move forward.
When you feel lost it can become quite easy to lose the motivation to do anything and start living without any intentions, which can result in aimlessly floating through each day. his can also be a very difficult cycle to break after a while so try to stay out of it. I would suggest that one tries to set and achieve even just two things a day. These things could be anything from creative things or more professional related things it doesn’t matter. When I’m super lost and have no motivation to do anything I tend to make art and attempt to deal with anything that could prevent me from moving forward.
If you are really lost and have no clue what to do with life look for your passions. If you are unsure as to what you are passionate about start looking for the things that you have always wanted to do in life or things you have thought about trying. If nothing else this should give you a good step in the right direction. If you find out your interests you should see a pattern that should lead you to an area or field of focus too.
Make each day count because you never know when what you have will be gone.
Personally Life after vision loss has definitely been an adventure from one day to the next. Most of the time I’m fairly well-adjusted other than when in a bright space without polarized sunglasses. All it takes to confuse my blind spots is a single glare of light and I cannot see anything clearly. whether indoor or outdoor any situations with bright lighting are the least ideal when it comes to getting my eyes to focus and see something.
Over the last few years I have adapted to relying on my ears to see a lot more than my eyes, which can get very interesting. This helps when i am in situations where I cannot get my eyes to focus to see as well as always having my blind cane with me in case I need it. Before realizing I forgot my fancy sunglasses at an event this weekend I had honestly kind of forgot how much my visual field has affected me, because I have not gone more than a day here and there without my sunglasses in years. I guess in the meantime I guess I just get to be extra blind if I head outside.
When I lost these parts of my vision the sense that compensated was definitely hearing, family would argue at times that it got worse, but the truth is it just got more selective haha. Using sound to locate the things around me can get confusing, but I can usually estimate how close or far something is from me just from its sound whether it be footsteps or a vehicle. That being said there are definitely some situations where it is virtually impossible to use sound to see such as: loud or crowded venues. In super loud settings I get lt gets confusing with a hum of noise coming from all directions and getting my eyes to stay in focus becomes extremely difficult. People assume that this makes life harder when really it just changes the way I view things (literally).
For the first time in some while I seem to have plateaued a bit and that’s okay. Yes I am not progressing as much as I would like to be, but I have been fairly lazy lately. I am still seeing progress it’s just within fine motor skills so it is generally less obvious. For example unless my hand locks up typing and writing are becoming a lot easier.
This month I did not notice much if any improvement in regards to my visual field, but I don’t mind because that also means that there were significantly less migraines. With publication and a handful of social events this past month I have been both extremely busy and in all downtime completely preoccupied. It was odd not having the time to focus on therapy as much as I would have liked. This was definitely a result of my choices so I know if I want to speed things back up I will have to refocus and get to work. I imagine that I will catch up where I fell behind over the next couple months at most.
This month despite not being active in a gym setting, I managed to walk an average of seven kilometers a day which has helped me improve my gait. I cannot believe that I have almost been home for eleven months now and am just starting to adjust to being here haha. I think it’s about time I got back into fit mode and started training in either running or pole fitness again or maybe something completely new.