Find Your Happy 

If you’ve been around for any length of time you probably understand that life happens and when it does you can lose your happiness among many other things. Lately I have been trying to find the abundance of happiness and joy that used to flow through me like blood. I’m sorry I haven’t been writing that much, but at the sane time I am not because I am trying to get back to my happy.

It was not until after I was done my book that I had realized that I lost the what was once contagious joy and happiness that radiated from me even through times of pain and sorrow. If you have been following my blog for a while you probably noticed that once the book was done my posting frequency dissipated.

A big part of writing my book was acknowledging all the things I had avoided dealing with during that time frame as my recovery was enough at the time I did not have the time or the energy to tackle anything else other than day-to-day life. Now into the better half of my recovery there has been a lot of reflection and time to accept, feel, and work through all those other things. Most days it’s at least a few hours of occupational/ physio exercises but after that I could spend a couple of hours staring at a wall while I do hand strengthening exercises. Over the last few months there has been a lot of healing so all that wall staring must be a good thing haha. I do not know that I’m ready to dive into my next book and set a deadline for it, but I am slowly getting back into writing.

No matter what life throws at you as you trek through your various journeys remember that you are not alone and that if need be you can modify the path to your goals to better suit your needs. It Is not how fast you make the journey, but the fact that you did it. Who cares if you reach your goal in two years or five years, the chances of you getting a prize for reaching the goal in a shorter period of time are slim unless you’re an Olympian.


Living While Burnt Out

Throughout life we will all go through stages of burn out at different times for different reasons. Personally I seem to function in a way that I burn out often, but I become insanely high functioning at these times. Depending on what I’m doing I may take steps to reach burn out knowing that it could help me finish something sooner. In the last three and a half years alone I have burnt out more times than I would like to admit, but when half your body is recovering from something it tends to take a lot out of a person.

When I burn out for any reason the first thing that happens is hat no matter how much or how little I sleep I do not feel as if I have rested at all. This results in shifting into autopilot, and becoming robot like and not really being there mentally. Everything still happens in my daily routine, but in all honesty I do become a little more sardonic than sarcastic haha. If you ever cross paths with me during a burn out you will know because everything seems very automated and less me.

It is important that when you burn out you need to take time to meet your needs and rejuvenate because a burn out period is not going to resolve itself without some attention. We are only almost half way through the year and I have already burnt out twice over the book and editing. Now that it is done and I’m waiting for it to be available in all amazon markets I have taken a full day to just relax, I even took a three-hour nap. I feel like at least one day a week should look like this regularly.