If you’ve been around for any length of time you probably understand that life happens and when it does you can lose your happiness among many other things. Lately I have been trying to find the abundance of happiness and joy that used to flow through me like blood. I’m sorry I haven’t been writing that much, but at the sane time I am not because I am trying to get back to my happy.
It was not until after I was done my book that I had realized that I lost the what was once contagious joy and happiness that radiated from me even through times of pain and sorrow. If you have been following my blog for a while you probably noticed that once the book was done my posting frequency dissipated.
A big part of writing my book was acknowledging all the things I had avoided dealing with during that time frame as my recovery was enough at the time I did not have the time or the energy to tackle anything else other than day-to-day life. Now into the better half of my recovery there has been a lot of reflection and time to accept, feel, and work through all those other things. Most days it’s at least a few hours of occupational/ physio exercises but after that I could spend a couple of hours staring at a wall while I do hand strengthening exercises. Over the last few months there has been a lot of healing so all that wall staring must be a good thing haha. I do not know that I’m ready to dive into my next book and set a deadline for it, but I am slowly getting back into writing.
No matter what life throws at you as you trek through your various journeys remember that you are not alone and that if need be you can modify the path to your goals to better suit your needs. It Is not how fast you make the journey, but the fact that you did it. Who cares if you reach your goal in two years or five years, the chances of you getting a prize for reaching the goal in a shorter period of time are slim unless you’re an Olympian.
While it is important to set goals and achieve them in a timely matter it is super important to not be working on said goals and have fun. This weekend o actually took a thirty-six hour period of chilling where I wasn’t allowed to work on the next book or the blog and it was amazing. This can be difficult when you’re a goal driven workaholic like me, but yet so worth it. The best part was being able to catch up with a friend I haven’t seen very much of over the last few years.
When I say don’t forget to have fun I really mean take time away from your goals and do things that make you feel good. This could be anything from a hobby to quality time with friends or family. Usually I default to a hobby due to being extra introverted in my downtime. I like being able to recharge on my own, usually just so that I can get back to those goals. I can say that this time around kicking back and catching up with an old friend was just what I needed. I’m very fortunate to have a handful of friends here that no matter how long we go without seeing each other nothing really changes.
I forget to have fun or take time for myself all the time. I guess I’m sort of masochistic by intentionally stressing myself out to get to that strung out super productive state. I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I can be pretty tightly wound at times haha. I’m trying to get into a routine of taking a day or two a week for myself and this is proving to be quite difficult. I will also admit that I’m thoroughly enjoying having a day or two each week to do whatever I desire. The last two weeks I got a little more artistic on my days off combining art with hand therapy and it was awesome.
As most of us live busy live’s that involve more than just work and sleep we should be working towards finding the balance between everything that works for us individually. The introverted workaholics will need more of a work life with less social interaction, whereas the extroverts are going to need more social activities than work to meet there balance. The truth is that you are going to need to find the balance that works best for you and your needs.
Honest, more than anything else lately I have been nesting and writing my cold, black heart out. writing my book, hiding for the outside world just trying to regroup. I’m at a point where I really take it one day at a time. Some days I wake up and know that I need to get out and be social versus other days where I want to head for the hills and go be a hermit in the mountains for the rest of my life. Luckily I have the freedom to live each day as I need to at the moment, It has been extremely helpful in my stroke recovery.
To all the extroverts that need to be social and interact with people on a daily basis, I envy you. I wish I needed to interact with people daily to meet my social needs. It would be wonderful to be able to go out over twice a week and not be entirely exhausted and back to square one of needing to hermit for a couple of days.
I hope that in my lifetime that people learn to just do what is best for themselves and stop caring what-so-ever about what society or the general public thinks. You do you and I’ll do me, if you’re not doing anything to harm anything or anyone who cares.