Quite honestly I dread days like today, thankfully I don’t have many of them this far into my recovery. Nothing started out or went as planned.From waking up too early to having the most stubborn hand in quite possibly world, Pretty much everything today except lifting weights resulted in tears. Today I was definitly more of a 5/10 instead of the normal 10/10. It was still a half decent day despite not really acomplishing anything.
I was awake really early today so with an extra two hours I started the day off with weights. Sleep loss is a prime way to start the day off in a bitchy mood so I tried using my number one method to fix it. I was bitchy enough to put 200% effort and lift the weights I used to before the stroke the whole time, with no upper body pain I feel like I should have lifted a little heavier than I did. I felt great just being able to lift my old weight without any extreme messures or much effort. I may have even been fairly impressed.
After that my hand refused to do almost anything, Wouldn’t cooperate when I made breakfast, or while trying to do some occupational exercises, or while trying to play any guitar chords. It was very frustrating to say the least, It resulted in lots of foul language some swearing at my stroke affected side and a metaphoric bucket full of tears. Days like today are the worst and most frusterating especially at almost three years into my recovery. It also doesn’t help that normally I’m a perfectionist and an over achiever so on days like today I get a little beat up over it. Bad days like today are a reminder that I’m still recovering and that from time to time I need to just sit back and relax.